Jinx

This weekend my family celebrated my grandmother's birthday. At one
point I heard one of my grandmother's friends asking my aunt what she
was doing these days. My aunt mentioned she had been laid off last
year when her employer was bought out and noted that our family had
been hit hard by the economy. She went on to say that she knew she
wanted to do something different with her life, but wasn't sure what.
It was simultaneously encouraging and disheartening to hear my aunt
say words that could've easily come out of my mouth. I love my aunt
and would like to emulate certain aspects of her life but, hearing her
say that, I wondered what I need to do in my life so that answer no
longer applies to me.